lightinmyeyes

awake in this daze, I can find the time.
giving it to her, I become mine.

oh you worrisome world. How little you see.
It's getting cold, it's getting dry, and everyone pouts and cries.

the money is gone, and did it take your smile? How about your heart?
It took that fool in LA's, and his unloved ones.

good Lord you are bright, and good Love you are wide,
thank you for finding mySelf in these times.


and if you still can't smile,  try this...
http://thecrit.com/2008/10/05/florida-biochemist-designs-a-citrus-tree-with-thc/#

"The plants are the pipeline into the Gaian intention. It’s just not a coincidence that these plants carry this immense spiritual message. They are the pipeline of Gaian intentionality."

Terrance Mckenna

http://www.matrixmasters.net/blogs/?p=275

The critic has the reigns, and the creator is subdued.
how did I let myself come to this?
It seemed to be a creative block,
But now I see that it is part of me blocking her.
All she wants to do is bring life and live it.
But he tells her everything she's doing wrong.
The only bad is lack of balance,
each should have their place...
but I need to give her more room,
Let go a little bit of his control.

My beloved friends giving me tools to harness my understanding, thank you love.
and the practice/performance that is this moment continues...
"stitching itself together from the inside"

I used the last length of floss in the container yesterday.
It felt good like running a favorite pen out of ink.
Reminding me to cherish the cyclical nature,
The death of things.

well, once again, the third sunday of the month is approaching.
But there's something different about this sunday,
it's my very last cooking class!

so, if you want to come sample some salsas, get some recipes...
I'm not going to suppose you'll actually learn anything, but
it should be a good time!

Sunday, August 18th, 5-7 pm
Sugarhouse wild oats
Salsa frenzy

1. My body is soft and my heart is open

2. I strive to respond instead of react

3. Every day I self medicate to drown in the sparkling moment

4. I'm not going to make the world a better place

5. I'm going to make myself a better person

6. I often try to hard

7. The more I love, the more it hurts, and the less it bothers me

Allowing myself a favorite past time
Praying to Ja and stepping in a shower
When I came to again, I had to write it down...

I stood outside of myself, above and a little behind
Looking down on this little machine
chuckling as it moves
looking like such a toy

Then I realized that I can control this thing
and I started pulling strings
which pulled me back behind these eyes
and I started moving so slowly, so very consciously

The movement is absolutely minimal
No excess, no noise, nothing but maybe an inch to shift weight
Allowing it to fall into place, nothing more, nothing less
I can’t describe the sensation other than

I’ve finally arrived right here
where I’ve always been
and I dont have to do a thing for the moment to manifest
not a thing, it comes no matter what I do or dont

and it leaves me
feeling perfectly free

"If you cannot love, nothing changes.

If you can love, nothing changes.

Except that you can love.

Nothing and nobody will ever give you anything
except an opportunity to love.

Now."


-the mad whack David Deida

www.bluetruth.org or http://www.deida.info/

and you know what that means! A vegan cooking class at the sugarhouse wild oats, coming your way. This sunday at 5pm, I'll be making some summer drinks for us. Which are hard to not make vegan, but, did you ever want to make your own bubble teas? how about Kombucha coolers? or a spicy ginger lemonade? My personal favorite however, is the watermelon fresca. Yummmy
Anyway, if you dont have a father to bother, come by for some free samples, some recipes to take home, and hopefully some good times, silent farts, and sticky chins. :)


I bet y'all thought I'd forgot my password or something, dintcha?

welcome to 2007 y'all!
Here's some futuristicity for your thursday evening...

Sure theres nothing new but the interface, but that's what I'm most interested in.

my world is just a mess that needs continual cleaning.
bogged down with things to do, chain reactions of thoughts
but everything can wait patiently for it's cleaning,
the moment passes whether i clean it or not
and i can clean it contently,
or reluctantly to the point of loathing the thing
in a hurry, or patiently with care.
I imagine Living like the tortoise in the race,
but being a pretty peppy little tortoise nonetheless!

Sometimes, sometimes... is this the time
returning to life so reluctantly
feeling this infection speak to me
letting my shoulders down
the belly soft
inside
savoring each moment as the culmination of all my expectation
won't It stop for one moment, to let me even make a memory?
the giving and taking, creating and displaying, opening and closing
of all of my many bodies, my muscles, the word habits, my memory and
my eyes, wide open but not looking, absorbing the Eternal as unaffected as It is beautiful
my seeking mind, my impure faces, my tingling pains, cracks in my body are not disturbing
absorbing them and the lessons, remembering that my original face is smiling at the drama of mortality
every days decision to take life in stride or shrink aside
and again tonight to go to sleep -deep in love
that I may wake with the Eternal eyes
and live with the Eternal love inside

well hello there roughians...

Today is the last monday in September, leaving me quite sad to see it go.
Tonight I've scheduled the last session of the Alexander Technique for us.
However, unless there's interest in the form of comments here, I'm going to cancel this session.
I can't thank you all enough for how much I've learned in this process, but I think it would be much easier to work individually with people. If you're interested, I dont have time, but I can make it, seemingly out of thin air, so just ask.

I'm trying once again to work my musical collection into something like itunes. Where the program indexes all of your music and has it all sorted by id3 tag, right? Well, I'm encountering the same frustrations that I've had every time I try to do this, and I was hoping someone would have some solution.

Example... My slowdive folder... they only have 3 albums proper, but I have 5 demo albums, 4 live albums, 7 singles, and some misc songs. Now, that makes for about 15 albums that I have to dig through every time I want to find the one, two or three most commonly listened to albums. Currently, I organize my music through folders on my disks, the old fashioned way. In this method, in the root Slowdive folder, I have the albums proper, then I have subfolders, _live, _demo, _singles, _vids, etc... where I keep everything else. This way, I have it more organized to my liking, and I find it easier to navigate.

Is there some way to arrange your particular bands albums/singles/live/etc other than something like rating? I mean, theres the compilation option, but that's not what I'm needing... Genre tags would be good, and I could make smart playlists that dont show live/ep/demo/etc, except then I would loose the library navigation feature, and would be stuck with playlists.

To sum up, I like the idea of keeping clean id3 tags, and of having all my music indexed and availible, but with 200+ gigs of music, I can't sacrifice the arbitrary organization I've found necessary to make sense of it all. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated.

Do you all really keep huge, clean but unified libraries of ALL your music?

Most of you have heard me talk about something I've been studying for the last several months called the Alexander technique. Well, in effort to unify my efforts of the spreading of this most useful idea, I'm going to give guided alexander study sessions through the month of September. Every monday, in the evening, 8-10ish we will be meeting some place, and have some readings, some discussions, and then some practices.
So if you're ever feel bodily discomfort, if you ever feel stressed, or if you experience pain doing the things you enjoy most, or if you can't dance as freely if you'd like to, or breath without an ounce of restraint, then come check this out. I can't promise anything, but this one idea has fundamentally changed my entire life. Theres not enough room here to say anything about the technique, as it is so multifaceted, that any way to sum it up resorts in a limiting of it's girth. So, if you want a some info, go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alexander_Technique.

Just some Ljam regarding the next cooking class...

http://www.chingsanctuary.org/events.php

Heres the menu for the day...

Vegan cooking with Ching Farms! Sunday August 20th from 5-7pm. Sugarhouse WildOats.

Fruit Soups

Having a hard time getting your 7-9 recommended servings of fruit a day? Well, come fine out how to get over half of them in one meal! Yours truly will be demonstrating the insanity that insues when you take fresh fruit and squish, squash, chop, mash and combine, cook, and consume it. It should be pretty fun for all involved, as it includes samples, and is presented at a very fair rate of your donations, all of which go straight to the benefit of the animals at the farm.


More infomation here... http://www.chingsanctuary.org/events.php

The evening before last, I came home late on my bicycle, and upon entering my driveway, I was arrested by a small animal studdering across the driveway. My bewilderment gave way as I realized that this was a small ferret, that looked like it had just crossed the sahara. The beautiful creature couldn’t walk straight, was about three inches short from the diameter she should have been, and when she saw me, she just stopped. Immediately, I picked her up, and she just gave into my arms. I didn’t even lock my bike up before I went to fix her a place. She acknowledged the food and water, but instead just cuddled up in the cloth and slept. The next morning, all the food and water was gone, and she seemed to be in a better mood, more curious and ferrety at least. To my luck and surprise, my animal savior friend Cassandra was going to the animal services that very morning, and she was more than glad to transport my new friend. This rather unusual experience has let me think and reflect through so many experiences in my life. Leaving me with quite a remorseful feeling indeed.
This ferret is spayed, and she’s getting to be a little older, but still is very perky and involved in her life. My assumption is that her owner let her go to “fend for herself”, and was just glad to be rid of the responsibility. This entirely heartless act is much more common than anyone with an awareness of the unity of life would like to admit. The selfish ways we treat our fellow living organisms that we use as pets is one thing, then theres the fact we have to face of how humanity treats animals at large. I’ve realized that humanity as a whole is involved in a very extensive and far reaching slaughter on so many fronts, so ruthlessly performed, that I have no reason not to interpret it as a holocaust. Species are flickering out before our eyes, millions of individuals are regarded as property, and sentenced to gruesome deaths.
The good feeling I got from saving this ferrets life quickly subdued as I realized how helpless I am in the larger picture of suffering and pain that our world sees. Inspiration relieved me by remembering a short story from I dont know where…
A young lad and his father were walking down the beach, upon which were starfish everywhere, they had been washed ashore and left for the sun to slay. The little boy started to pick them up and throw them back in the water, when his father asked him, look at all these starfish, you can’t possibly save them all, why do you even bother. To which the wise lad replied, well, it matters to this one, as he picks one up, and tosses it back into the retreating waves.
Is the limitation of our ability an excuse not to exercise that ability? That’s just plain silly. However, if anyone’s been thinking of adopting a cute little ferret friend, heres the link… Mrs. Ferret

I hate to burst my own bubble, but I am now a master sliver remover. I recently removed a sliver from a friend of mine, and it only took one try. I just removed a sliver from myself with the first swipe! This has never happened before, and I think my stars are right. Either that or it's the Alexander awareness I've recently donned. Learning how to do things right the first time, every time. It's not a specific practice, it's a specific mindset.
I suppose I've been riding the wave of constant bliss for over a year now. I dont really anticipate coming down, but, as I dont care so much that life goes so well, I dont think I care that it's going to suck sometimes. I've been working so hard recently. Growing so much it hurts. Finally, Unity stands naked before my eyes in it's perfect stature of eternity. It's beauty makes me think that any art I can attempt is futile in expressing the smallest part of what consciousness is capable of perceiving. But why not try anyway? Is the true art not the state of mind we percieve it through? The only true masterpiece being ones self.